I'm exhausted. It's 4 in the morning and I still haven't slept. I'm working furiously on school projects that I should have worked on WAY before now.... I don't know why I procrastinate so much. I have so much to do and I don't feel at ALL like doing it!
I've been feeling like crap lately. No energy, headaches every day, listlessness, irritation, no motivation. I managed to get my ass in the car to go to a Step Study meeting tonight. I almost talked myself out of it. I must remember that the longer I go without attending a meeting, the less I want to go... I made the announcement about the ocean baptism I'm going to be doing to symbolize my moving past step 3. It's on the 22nd. I invited all of my AA friends, but it's a ways away, so we'll see who actually shows up.
I still seem to be struggling with my sponsor. I don't want to tell her I'm moving on, but I know I need to. She's stopped responding to my texts quickly - now it's around a day in between each response. She still hasn't told me to do anything else besides this stupid journal....
Well, I have to get back to the grind (and take headache medicine... and make coffee). Wish me luck today. All-nighter FTW! -_-
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